It’s A New Day

So, yes, the fog has lifted and I have been on the upward swing of things finally.  I think the doctor scared the crap out of me when she suggested I go on antidepressants if I didn’t snap out of my depressive attitude.

SNAP!

The last thing I want is to need a drug to help me cope with life.  Don’t get me wrong.  I am not saying that there is anything wrong with taking them, because I know that there is legitimate reasons that some may need to use antidepressants.   Yet, I knew deep down, that my main problem is that I needed to deal with some issues I was having and move on.  In saying that, I am making strides and moving forward.

Here is some things I am doing to work on myself.

  1. I am trying to give God the first part of my morning everyday by having a devotion, and a time of prayer and worship.
  2. I am trying to focus on happy memories of those that I lost this year to suicide and realize that there is nothing that I could do to change things…even though I wish I could.
  3. Now that the doctor has
    given me the okay to work out again, I have put that into action.  It’s been a slow process because I don’t want to hurt my back again, but I am making strides.  I have to admit that I at first felt like a baby making it’s first steps when I started lifting light weights.  I also got an online trainer.  (more about that later)

That’s it in a nutshell.  I truly believe that working out releases that “feel good” endorphin that makes you feel better about life overall.  Even now I can look back and see the domino affect that happened when I hurt my back.   There I was, already hurting on the inside from the death of my friend and step-brother, and then I hurt my back and couldn’t go work out.  So guess what?  My body wasn’t producing the endorphins it needed. Yep.  That was a disaster.

But God.

I believe that the biggest change inside of me has been one of returning to prayer in a more steadfast manner.  Not just praying when I have time, but instead,I am making time to pray. Prayer used to be a big part of my life, and I want it to be again… just as badly as I want to be in good health.

One more thing. When I started this blog, I couldn’t decide if I should make two blogs.  One for weight-loss, and one for spiritual things, etc.  I still haven’t completely decided, but my thought is this.  “I named my blog “Dana’s Journey” because it is about the journey of my life.  Everything I write about is regarding issues I am having.  Be it weight-loss, hormones, aging, spiritual, cooking..etc.   So, why can’t this blog encompass everything?

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