So, yes, the fog has lifted and I have been on the upward swing of things finally. I think the doctor scared the crap out of me when she suggested I go on antidepressants if I didn’t snap out of my depressive attitude.
The last thing I want is to need a drug to help me cope with life. Don’t get me wrong. I am not saying that there is anything wrong with taking them, because I know that there is legitimate reasons that some may need to use antidepressants. Yet, I knew deep down, that my main problem is that I needed to deal with some issues I was having and move on. In saying that, I am making strides and moving forward.
Here is some things I am doing to work on myself.
- I am trying to give God the first part of my morning everyday by having a devotion, and a time of prayer and worship.
- I am trying to focus on happy memories of those that I lost this year to suicide and realize that there is nothing that I could do to change things…even though I wish I could.
- Now that the doctor has
given me the okay to work out again, I have put that into action. It’s been a slow process because I don’t want to hurt my back again, but I am making strides. I have to admit that I at first felt like a baby making it’s first steps when I started lifting light weights. I also got an online trainer. (more about that later)
That’s it in a nutshell. I truly believe that working out releases that “feel good” endorphin that makes you feel better about life overall. Even now I can look back and see the domino affect that happened when I hurt my back. There I was, already hurting on the inside from the death of my friend and step-brother, and then I hurt my back and couldn’t go work out. So guess what? My body wasn’t producing the endorphins it needed. Yep. That was a disaster.
I believe that the biggest change inside of me has been one of returning to prayer in a more steadfast manner. Not just praying when I have time, but instead,I am making time to pray. Prayer used to be a big part of my life, and I want it to be again… just as badly as I want to be in good health.
One more thing. When I started this blog, I couldn’t decide if I should make two blogs. One for weight-loss, and one for spiritual things, etc. I still haven’t completely decided, but my thought is this. “I named my blog “Dana’s Journey” because it is about the journey of my life. Everything I write about is regarding issues I am having. Be it weight-loss, hormones, aging, spiritual, cooking..etc. So, why can’t this blog encompass everything?