I originally posted this to my Weight Watchers group, but I decided to go ahead and post it here too. After all, it is about my journey.
I have to admit, this weight loss journey has been a never-ending journey for me. Sometimes I get so mad when I don’t see the results that I want and it makes me want to give up. Why bother, right? Well, guess what? I’m not quitting. I am not a quitter. The number on the scale may not be moving downward, even though I’m steadily tracking now, and trying to be extra careful during this outage (working evenings is hard) I’m not going to give up. I’m old enough to realize now that this particular journey of my life will be an ongoing one and if it takes me more time to get to to the weight I was created to be at, then so be it. I am on a journey and I will see the destination that I going to. I am not defined by a number on the scale and it’s not going to beat me down. I am active and I’m eating better each and every day. I am proud of myself and that’s good enough for me.
Sorry for the long post. No, actually. I’m not. I needed to put this out there.
The other day as I was contemplating my struggle with choosing the right things to eat, and eating way too much sugar, I started talking to God about it…again. Only this time when I was complaining about myself to Him again, I heard something way down deep inside of me, and I decided to really listen. My conversation kinda went like this…well…. I say kinda, because I can’t promise that I remember everything word-for-word, but I do remember the most important things that were said to me.
Yesterday I went mountain biking and I made a big mistake! Now that the park is closing earlier, we were not able to park where we sometimes do at the trail head. We only had an hour to ride, so we decided to park at the bottom and take the connector trail up to the main trails that we wanted to ride.
Lately, I have been thinking about a time when I saw this flower that had been uprooted out of the ground, but yet it was still blooming. As I looked at the flower, I began wondering how it still looked alive, but yet had no way to grow and continue in life. I remember that I asked a friend in church what it could possibly mean if we looked at it in a spiritual way. I will never forget what she told me. She said, “Not everything has to have a spiritual meaning. It’s just a flower.” Continue reading
I have been way off track in my eating habits lately. Why is it that I can be going along and doing so well, then BAM! KAPOW! I am eating sweet things like there is no tomorrow. It’s like, I know it starts happening but I don’t stop it. Is this binge eating? Continue reading
This actually wasn’t meant to be a blog post. I was starting a letter to someone, but it went in another direction.
There is a question that has been on my mind a lot lately. One that I have been asking myself, and the Lord. I can’t seem to get an answer, or if I do, I don’t hear it. I ask myself if I am okay? Is it normal that I do not desire to be in leadership anymore? That I do not desire to preach, teach, or prophesy? I ask if this is normal,because at one time it is exactly what I did. Continue reading
I’m still trying to figure out how to do everything that I feel I need to do, and want to do during this part of my journey in life. Do you ever wonder how everyone seems to have it together, but you? I see people posting on Instagram and Facebook everything they do, and it makes me feel a little frustrated. How do they do it all???? Continue reading