Facing My Fears

Today I did something I have been wanting to do for a long time since I joined Gold’s Gym….I went swimming!  I knew that since it is Sunday, not many people would be at the gym or utilizing the pool area and I was right.  😆

I hate putting on a swimsuit and wearing it out in public, but sometimes you just have to suck it up and face your fears if you want to enjoy life.  Swimming is such a good form of exercise, and I want to add it to the mix of my routine.  If I keep letting my fear of other people’s opinions of how I look in a swimsuit stop me, then I’m letting them control me.  Fear paralizes. It stops you in your tracks.  It makes you doubt the very truth that you know is real.  It causes someone like me to stay at home hiding, because they don’t want anyone to stare at them and make them feel uncomfortable.  I know that for me, if I see anyone looking in my direction I always think that they are thinking something negative about me.  I don’t think I have ever believed that someone is looking at me and thinking anything positive.  I always assume they are thinking, “Look at that big girl” or “OMG, she is so huge.”  The list goes on and on of the insults I hurl at myself because I think that is what they are thinking of me.  How wrong is this thinking????  VERY WRONG.  I think Joyce Meyer would call this, “Stinking Thinking.”

I’m so tired of letting the fear of what someone may think of me dictate to me what to do, and what not to do.  This not only applies to weightloss issues for me, but it also applies to many other areas in my life.  It’s time for me to shrug the opinions of people off and start enjoying life more.  It’s time to be myself and all that God has called me to be!