Nothing Can Prepare You for Losing a Loved One

Even though you know death is approaching, nothing ever can prepare you for when it comes. I am thankful for the peace and love of God during these times.

On August 7, we lost a great matriarch of our family, Verna Lee Edwards, my granny. I have always known that I come from a strong line of women, and these past two weeks have proven it to me in an even greater way. If you read Proverbs 31:10-31, you will see a glimpse of what kind of woman my granny was like. She was all of that, and so much more to me. There is nothing I could write that could describe how I am feeling right now, and how much she will be missed by all of us. It gives me great comfort knowing that she is gazing upon the beauty of the Lord right now and feeling no pain, and enjoying her eternal life with Papa, in the Kingdom of God.

You have left a great legacy in our family, Granny. I can hear our Father say, "Well done, good and faithful servant," as He places a crown upon your head. I love you forever and always.

"God has you in His arms, I have you in my heart."

Unanswered Questions

This morning as I lay in bed trying so hard to go back to sleep, (because I know I need it) all I could feel was the pain in my stomach. All I could see in my mind was a big ball of yarn in multiple colors that was knotted together with no end, and no beginning. These knots represent so many questions that are going through my mind right now. Continue reading

Waiting Feels So Wrong

I often do not know how to start out any post I write, and this one is no different. Well, actually, it is different. It is different because it is about my granny. My grandmother, or "granny," as we call her, has been given days to live Continue reading

Forgiven

This actually wasn’t meant to be a blog post.  I was starting a letter to someone, but it went in another direction.

There is a question that has been on my mind a lot lately.  One that I have been asking myself, and the Lord.  I can’t seem to get an answer, or if I do, I don’t hear it.  I ask myself if I am okay?  Is it normal that I do not desire to be in leadership anymore? That I do not desire to preach, teach, or prophesy?  I ask if this is normal,because at one time it is exactly what I did. Continue reading

Trying To Find Balance

I’m still trying to figure out how to do everything that I feel I need to do, and want to do during this part of my journey in life. Do you ever wonder how everyone seems to have it together, but you? I see people posting on Instagram and Facebook everything they do, and it makes me feel a little frustrated. How do they do it all???? Continue reading

Finding Balance Is Difficult

Just when I thought I was getting back into the swing of my workouts, a wrench got threw into the program.  What wrench, you may ask?  For me, the wrench is working a different schedule then my husband.

You see, usually I come straight home from work, change my clothes, let the dogs out, and then head to the gym.  I like for my workouts to be done by 6:30 at the latest, and that is only when I take a group class at the gym.

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What Meaneth This?

I’ve had this image in my mind since I woke up this morning.  An image of a woman in a wheelchair who keeps trying to get up and walk, but each time she gives up and sits back down.  Even putting weight onto her arms to try and lift up her body is exhausting, so she quickly changes her mind and sinks back down into the chair.  It’s like a moment of hope comes and she tries to get up, but each time exhaustion wins.  Not just physical exhaustion, but mental exhaustion.  Just the whole premise of trying to get up and walk again makes her feel tired, so she easily gives up.  It appears Continue reading